Friday, September 9, 2016

My Dad's last relapse.




I will never know if my Dad knew that the day
he had his last relapse,would be his last day
on Earth.There was no evidence to suggest he
knew his risks other than to assume he did after
over two decades of drug and alcohol addiction.

At age 57,my Dad's body was damaged from
years of toxic abuse and unhealthy lifestyle.No
way to reverse some of the damages that can
build up in a human body,mind and their spirit.
Especially because he never really tried hard to.

But -

My Dad had been keeping a low profile in his
last year of life.Spending time away from the
city and temptations of rampant feeding to his
chronic alcoholism and on and off again drug
use.His body was not well.His breath,tired.

He was spending time with Mother as they
had always remained close as friends.She
knew the man I called my Dad before he
lost himself in addictions.I never knew him
clean and sober.The man I got to know at
the end of his life was still toxic.He did not
know how to heal.He never made amends.

Not to me or to himself.He literally held his
breath.Walking and talking as though there
was nothing to say.All the while I wondered
why his two decades of not being present for
his family ever seemed to matter at all to him.

He would cry once in awhile for himself but
he just could never come clean with verbally
taking accountability for his ill actions towards
himself and his family. I've concluded this was
due to immense shame and most times,denial.

The last day of my Dad's life he had a visitor
at his home.An old so called friend he would
drink and use with.My family knew of him.
He and my Dad began to drink earlier in the
afternoon.My Dad's friend brought heroin -
and so began my Father's last drug relapse.

He did not live to see that evening.


Every shred of hope I had secretly held
within and between my resentments,fears
and love for him,drowned in my mourning.

I mourned the Dad I never got to have -
long before he died but I never gave up
hoping that maybe I would at least get a
part of that Dad who could be the man
I wanted to feel proud to call my Dad.
His overdose death complicated my
grief. I needed to learn to unravel as it
was as complicated as my relationship
was with him.Very hurtful with no hope
left.

After 20 plus years of his drug /alcohol abuse,
his denial believing he could live well blocked
his path to wellness.That same denial cost him
his life by believing he could use again and not
die.His denial taught me to never think it could
never happen to me.I am 21 yrs.sober now as
I woke up one morning after a drinking binge
and saw his face in the mirror.I was not going
to put my kids through what my Dad's chronic
alcoholism and addiction did to his family.I do
not harbor resentments towards my Father in
anyway anymore.My living true to my own life
and wellness,I have learned to forgive,let go -
and continue to learn on how to understand the
human brain and addiction/alcoholism.There is
no shame.No blame.

My Father came from a family of alcoholics.
He could not break his own chains.But I will
honor the elders I never got to know with a
compassion and understanding that all of the
life realities in addiction,do not have to end
before we can each find a healthier path in life.


September is National Recovery Month.
If anyone is in recovery and still struggling,
please reach out to sources of healthy and
secure support for yourself.Relapsing can
occur for many reasons.There's no shame
but there is danger.Keep living true to your
wellness and right to recovery.Life is a gift
including you're in recovery.Embrace it!






Monday, September 5, 2016

Life potentials..

Photo by Tabitha Montgomery 


I woke up today heavy and tired.
Congested and achy.Yearning to
get back to creativity - but still full
of much inspiration - and insights
to the work we human beings in
reality are meant to do for future
generations.Let's keep progress 
creative over destructive.The Arts
nurture perspectives,build bridges
and feed our cognitive and spiritual
well being.Heavy post here maybe
for some people.For others,I know 
you get it.Customize wellness and
life truly unfolds our life potentials.

~
Tabitha 

Sunday, September 4, 2016

International Overdose Awareness Day,Vancouver.2016 ( IOAD )

I'm please to have made this happen.
IOAD Solidarity.


A few months ago I decided to pick up the telephone
and call the City of Vancouver to find out how I would
go about finding a site and planning in IOAD Event.
I had thought about organizing one for a few years after
learning about how to when I discover the website called
http://www.overdoseday.com/

My own personal life has been deeply effected by the
losses of close loved ones. I've also lost acquaintances
and am close to people who have lost loved ones.This
touches all walks of life.Nobody is immune to drug or
alcohol abuse issues.Nobody is immune to overdosing.


I've never done it before.I felt a bit nervous when I made
the first phone call - but by the time I got off of the phone
after speaking with the helpful and encouraging staff at
The City of Vancouver,Events Planning and Permits -
I was booked at the Vancouver Art Gallery for Aug.31
the official day of International Overdose Awareness Day.

I also contacted City Hall and put an application in for an
International Overdose Awareness Day Proclamation that
would be signed by Vancouver Mayor Gregor Robertson.
That was approved and I am pleased to assist Vancouver
to be put on the map in solidarity with other Cities around
the world who are doing the same,officially observing IOAD
on Aug.31.Vancouver has had events around town in the past
but it has been been as recognized at it should be so being able
to help increase Overdose Awareness with the Proclamation -
and Annual Events in downtown Vancouver,makes a difference.

There were other *events from the DTES March,out to Surrey,
Abbotsford,Kamloops all the way over to several in Ontario.
Fifty plus events officially registered events on the website for
IOAD - From countries all around the world!


I slowly started to write up a draft of what I hoped the event
would look like and what it could offer the general public.I'm
happy to I kept moving past a few fears and set backs after
the original site for VAG was facing construction delays.As I
was able to secure a paid site nearby.The Vigil and Rally went
on as planned.I facilitated a wide range of organizations,people
and harm reduction workers to bring together progressive drug
health drug and services out for the public of Vancouver to be
able to learn more about.There is a lot of support and services
in Vancouver for which many may not be aware of and or want
to learn more about.This included a Naloxone Table with Kits,
Information and on the spot Naloxone training and certificates.

The level of passion,expertise,progressive harm reduction /
Overdose Prevention/Addiction and Mental Health service
Information that was shared at this event was a powerhouse
of inspiration and education.From people on the front lines,
behind the scenes and everywhere in between.There are a
lot of dedicated and passionate people,making a difference!

Plans are already in the works for IOAD Vancouver 2017.
Site is booked and rough draft of plans are in the making.

Keep the messages of International Overdose Awareness Day
in conversations.In your own hearts and minds all year round.

Thank you to all who support IOAD efforts to improve the
quality of life in our homes and through out global societies.

Sincerely,
Tabitha Montgomery

* IOAD is open to anyone who would like to get involved.
Please follow this link to official website for more information.
http://www.overdoseday.com/get-involved/



Sunday, August 14, 2016

A Summer Sunday Morning Meditation Muse

I woke up early today.Sun blasting
against our Jumbo Sunflower plants.
Heat immediately impaling my flesh.
Sweat beads still sitting in my pours.
Black Siamese cat cleaning himself
on the inflated air mattress left out
to dry on the front lawn.Be he was
touched we left him a Queen size
bed.He's very appreciative,that cat.
Ocean breeze whispering up the hill
from the Inlet make the dehydrated
leaves fall gracefully of the branches.
I so appreciate the time I take for my
morning coffee and meditation.
I feel my mind truly enjoying a much
needed long stretch and big yawn as
I enjoy long deep breaths.Serenity.
Grassy yard coated with signs of Fall
already.But were not there yet.Today
is starting out to be a beautiful,sunny
Summer Sunday.BC has the best of
all four seasons and I intend to soak
each moment of today even as my
t-shirt will soak up the sweat by it all.
I love Summertime.I love Sundays.
Serene living includes making the
most of our natural environment.It
has so much to offer us humans to
include in wellness and rejuvenation.
Wishing everyone a recharging your
energy kind of Sunday before a new
week kicks off again tomorrow again.
~
Tabitha

Friday, July 15, 2016

Peace is what we each bring to the world.




Too often we assume the roles of 
" peace keeping " to a higher sort 
of authority.But each of our are the 
pieces to a peaceful society and -
of humanity.There's no other way
we're going to manage each other
in any other way but with integrity 
to take good self care and not be 
reactive to others around us or to
the events carrying tragedies/fear.

Imagine if we each could take 
our dismays and became a bit 
more mindful to those who live
in harms way on every level.To
show compassion instead of a
sort of ignorance that problems
of the world are other people's
problems(WE are the PEOPLE).

Borders do not divide humanity.
Diversity exemplifies qualities to
mix together for insightful and -
creative ways to get along on this
planet.Power struggles snap back.
Nobody wins.

It takes courage to keep walking out 
the door and into the public with the 
dignity and grace to be kind in a day 
and age when so many people are 
becoming very detached from civility.
Don't let this make you bitter or jaded
we need one another to keep society 
safe n sounder - as much as we can.

Time to turn " hopes n prayers "
into daily acts of patience - and 
kindness to one another.Peace 
is what you bring to the world ♥

This feeds our own spiritual side
to keep practice living peacefully.
With the tenacity to never give up
our rights to be free to follow our
hopes and dreams.This is also
the example our youth need
for future generations as well.

We are each a piece of peace.

~
Tabitha 

Friday, July 8, 2016

The sound of the rain.

~Photo by Tabitha Montgomery ~


This mornings mediation muse...

I woke up this quiet morning on my street
to the sounds of the peaceful Summer rain.

I opened the window to let in the fresh air
of the new day that carried in songs from 
the early rising morning birds.I only wish 
I knew the words - but I trust what they 
sing is meaningful among themselves and
for a human ear to catch it means there is
enough peace and quiet to ponder those
meanings.That mix of softly beating rain
and crystal clear charms of the birds chirp
to me - carries mornings mediation bliss.


My heart feels heavy as the damp skies.

Grey clouds shrouding the sun as it is my
own light inside me.Nobody can deny the
state of the world with it's senseless acts
of violence and the united innocent pain


and grief that follows.Humans are afraid
to leave the house.People are angry and
feel powerless to make justice work right.

I see so many tears, so many death tolls.

We all see it on the news every single day.


We feel it among tension and anxiety out 
on the streets and in traffic.That silence
can feel so hopeless if we don't break it
with common decency and genuine care
that's also known as humanity.We're all 
in this together.Those good mannerisms
- can rebuild a persons faith in a new day
and in each of our own personal lives.




The rain is slowing down to dainty drops 
bouncing off the bright pink rose bush,out 
in my garden.The crows are moving in for
brunch as they scope out the garbage cans
lined up in the alley ways.The clouds look 
a bit brighter now.There is a whole day for
me to channel my energy into productivity.
Sometimes we've just got to unload all of 
the negativity-  and human condition angst.

Non of us can save the world - but we can 
exercise our rights to live free and in peace
by not becoming what angers and hurts us.
Everyone deserves to wake up on their own
quiet streets, hearing peacefulness in the rain -
any day of the year without heaviness or fear.

Because we should never give up our rights to 
finding some kind of peace within each of us.
A challenge for some of us more than others-
please don't give up-humanity needs you.

That way we have a little more brighter energy
to give back to the world instead of the letting 
the darker parts of our world - take it from us.
I don't want that to happen to me in my  life,
how about you and in yours ?

Tabitha 











Friday, July 1, 2016

Happy Canada Day

Photo by Tabitha Montgomery 


~ Happy Canada Day ~
Grateful to be a Canadian with
Austrian and Cree in my blood.
Married to a landed immigrant 

from the USA.In a country here
where we are progressive and 
free to embrace diversity and -
with an abundance of natural
resources.Keep Canada Cool.

Keep living free and in peace.
There's no place like home 
~
Tabitha

Monday, June 27, 2016

~ Beautiful BC Summertime Fresh Fruits ~

~ Photo from Tabitha Montgomery ~



Tis' the
Summertime season
with the abundance
 of tasty,mouth watering
BC Fresh Fruits & Berries!

Sunday, June 26, 2016

~ Customized Adventures of Seeking Inner Peace ~

Photo By Tabitha Montgomery 


~ A Sunday Muse ~
by Tabitha Montgomery.

Sitting beneath the late JuneVitamin D infused
warmth and sunlight,I began to travel back to
a time in my life when Summer was about the 
ice cream treats,running barefoot through the
sprinkler across soft,cool fresh cut lawns.
Or stabbing my little feet on sharp broken shells
at the beach as I hopped across the hot sand as
though they were fiery coals,so could to get to the
cool ocean seashore and frolic in the waves.Even
if I almost always caught a partial wave in with my
mouth and threw up a little.(I just loved the water).

There wasn't a care in the world other than maybe
those few abrasions on my feet or sunburned shoulders.
Nothing my Mom couldn't fix with a kiss,a band aid,
and a cold Noxzema hand painted across my back ,
when the sunburn started to shine and blister.

How could I have for seen my life ahead would be far
less endearing and as carefree as an adult ? Somehow 
though,I think I did know there were some tough life 
realities in store,I watched other adults.I was close to
my Mom.I was an intuitive young person.Yet,the tools
to keep that connection to curiosity and inner peace 
would still have to be earned through my own adult 
life experiences - and with a lot of self care work,I 
do believe I have gained a lot of helpful coping tools
to accept a lot of life and world reality.Circumstances.

Some wisdom comes full circle around for each of us.

I have to say without a shadow of a doubt that one of
the biggest life coping tools goes right back to childhood.
The simplest forms of freedom and carefree inner peace
was truly just enjoying the simplest things in life.It works.

I still love ice cream treats,running barefoot through the
sprinkler across soft and cool fresh cut lawns( on days 
when there are no water restrictions by laws in place ).
Stabbing my now big feet on sharp broken shells at the
beach as I now hobble across the hot sand as though they
are fiery coals,so I can to get to the cool ocean seashore
and frolic in the waves(once in a Half Moon Bay).Even if 
I almost ( but really try not to!) caught a partial wave in 
with my mouth and throw up a little.I still love the water.

There was a dark grieving time in my life when I would
just sit on the beach all in black with a hat on and just
watch my kids have fun while I sat,like a stone cold rock.
Years I yearned for that fun and freedom to play.It was
a big shifting place within me the first day I actually
felt the Summer sun and water fun let me feel like I
was actually letting go.Allowing myself to feel at
peace a little more and just stay in the moment.

I enjoy all of the simple activities I enjoyed as a kid and 
to me,being an adult I get to take them further away from
home by travelling,camping,outdoor adventures or just to
simply sit on my back deck,beneath the late June Vitamin D
infused warmth and sunlight,meditate for a little while and 
then treat myself to a little cup of ice cream and enjoy it.

Life often presents challenges,at times rather sudden ones.
It's good to take a time out to reflect on stress management
and try taking time out for ourselves and our families to have
a little fun,fresh air,exercise. (( Whatever works for you )).

Sometimes I think we adults are so fussy trying to find 
inner peace outside of ourselves or from other people.
When really,there's such a unique tool kit within each of 
us of places and things we like to do we can reconnect
with in a new adult form,that is truly a feeling of inner 
peacefulness and joy.That can also lead us to brand
new life experiences and reflective perspectives.


Here's wishing everyone appreciate many customized 
adventures along seeking your own kind of inner peace.

Thursday, June 9, 2016

While we have a high profiled sex crime case
trending our news waves and open letters on
media surfacing, let's not forget that violence
against women is global.There are no forms
of justice for countless women we will never 
hear about.So thank you to everyone who's
sharing courage to speak out against crimes
of violence and sexual exploitation against an
innocent human being.Any age or gender.It is
time to keep this issue out in the open with the
letters,the conversations at home and society
hearing loud and clear - sex crimes must stop
being ignored or treated like someone asked
for it.The women in this *story were murdered
- because they refused it...." It " being raped...

Wednesday, June 8, 2016

Very Real & Healthy Introvert Here.

It took me years to figure out why I never felt
like I fit in socially around people and peers.
Almost 50 yrs old,I'm understanding myself
much more clearly as introverted and I like it.
Sharing some links for others who prefer the
quiet life for themselves as well.It's not a bad
or snobby thing.It's a very real,healthy thing.


Read on if you like..


~
Tabitha

Friday, June 3, 2016

Fentanyl Fatalities in 2016


Fentanyl fatalities are making headlines in 2016
as a highly potent and deadly form of opiate drug.

*BC Coroner had reported 200 deaths in Vancouver
already in 2016 caused by fentanyl drug overdose.
This includes other street drugs (turned deadlier) in
illegal drug labs that are being  laced with fentanyl.

Nobody can be sure what's in a drug they buy on
the streets.There are no guarantees and it is a true
game of Russian roulette.Terrifying for families who
have a loved one addicted - or experimenting with
recreational (some because their peers are socially).

Then there are those who become addicted to a
prescribed pain management medication.Without
the proper information and oversight to refills,the
out patient of a doctor who has prescribed any
kind of opiate pain medication can become very
addicted to their medication.BC doctors and the
lower mainland pharmacy now have a program in
place to monitor pain medication refills to act as a
means of monitoring patience med use and can be
a way to help intervene earlier if a patient has had
an addictive pattern developed after injury,etc.

Addiction not an easy realization for some people.
Some deny it or become afraid .Their body has
become addicted,the physical symptoms if they
don't have the medication can be unbearable.To
many of us,we cannot imagine what that's like.

Drug abuse,addiction and overdose can come in
all forms and walks of life.It does not discriminate.
It can happen subtly and quickly.It is not always a
choice for people to use " drugs " in the form of a
prescribed medication.The medical condition of
a person who's become addicted is very serious.

Recent high profile drug overdose example.
Prince may have been a very private person - but
was apparently well known for his self discipline
in keeping healthy.You just have to watch how he
performed to that.He got addicted and wanted to
get help.Sometimes that realization comes too late.

It's a tragic devastating loss to lose someone from
such a highly * preventable death.It's perplexing
how to help or stop it when we stand alone but as
a society,we can help keep current information out
in the public.Share warnings,resources,support and
health services that can intervene earlier,if people
are more aware and less afraid or less ashamed..

*
Preventable by either total abstinence - or under
carefully monitored medical assistance and usage.


The deaths of those who've died from overdose will
not be forgotten.They were lives that mattered and
are remembered how they lived - not just how they
died.Just as Prince will be remembered for his life -
so will countless others who don't make headlines.

Including very dear loved ones I've lost and maybe
you have lost too.Together we can maintain dignity
and courage to strip away stigmas and keep health
issues around drugs - a very real form of education
in our ways of acceptance,awareness,real changes
with lower risks and hopefully more lives saved.

~

Tabitha

*
The number of deaths are higher now I believe since
this report was made back in April of 2016.This is an
ongoing and very serious public health concern.

http://news.nationalpost.com/news/canada/b-c-declares-public-health-emergency-after-fentanyl-overdoses-kill-200-people-in-three-months



Wednesday, June 1, 2016

Smart Phone Etiquette & Respecting People's Privacy.

Modern day life of screen and social media
addictions has deeply deprecated privacy -
and intimacy.Be it a wedding,funeral,social
gathering of any kind.Even someone's own
death bed is featured in people's postings 
as though it's acceptable rather than human
decency to privacy and consideration to the
delicate fine line of dignity and respect.There's
no reason for anyone to be offended if people
want a Smart Phone'less event.Think about it.
If it really offends you - there's something you
may want to look at a little more deeply.All of
us should.We seem to be desensitized to life
experiences - and - it's truly personal value.
Maybe that's the kind of value we all need as
a technological society need to reclaim again.
Respectively
.
~
Tabitha

~ Good Morning June 2016 ~

Someone flying a big Tiger kite at the lake one Summers day.

Nothing compares to that reflective feeling siting by a fire.

Mouth watering locally grown strawberries are THE best ♥

Tis the season for these little miracle workers :)
~
I love everything about the month of June,
most of all - the warm weather that brings
with it an abundance of fresh colorful roses 
and flowers,sweet strawberry fields forever.

So much local fresh produce to devour and
fabulous Summer recipes to create with the
seasonal fruits n veg w/BBQ recipes as well.

Fresh water lakes and lush forests to explore.
Road trips music,potato chips,starry nights
with loved ones,camping,romantic picnics,
canoeing among the frogs and dragon flies.

The list of joys in June can vary for everyone,
for me.It really narrows down to the beautiful
ambiance of Mother Natures Spring meeting 
Summer mid month.I love the great outdoors.

~
Here's wishing everyone enjoy the transition
from Springtime into Summer time.Stay safe
and enjoy making warm new life adventures
that turn to memories until next new season.

Tabitha 

Tuesday, May 31, 2016

A little bit more about why / what I Blog here.

I blog a lot about up to date
health/law regulations where
drugs and alcohol abuse are
profiled.Addiction has a very
cruel history in my life as I've 
lost too many.All different life
ending circumstances but all
could have been prevented.
This is another site that shares
a lot of good up to date info /
and supportive links for anyone
facing the realities of addiction
or loss by overdose in their lives.
I have extend my gratitude to all
who share the courage to never
giving up on education and the
power of awareness.When it's
backed up with action,it matters.

Monday, May 30, 2016

When our two dogs became just one..

Baby Alice walking her friend Honey
by clutching a leash in her baby teeth.

 

 

Honey was my shadow ♥
Honey was Alice's sidekick and mentor.

 

Our furry family members cannot live forever
but there  unconditional love does.

I shot this one morning after Honey had passed away.
I found Alice somewhat reflective.Grieving ?
Reconnecting with Alice feels great and I am grateful
for her patience with me.I think she knew I'd come
around to giving her much more attention again.
And she was right ♥
~

Here's the written version for anyone interested.


Just over a year ago,I lost my beloved little 17 yr old
long  haired rescue pooch,named Honey.She was my
shadow.A caring and playful canine friend and forever
family member.I loved her to pieces.Then one day we
( my human family ) adopted a LabXHusky puppy that
I named Alice.Together the two become fast friends,with
Honey maintaining her place at the foot of the bed.It was 
all good.A healthy few years went by when Honey got 
ill with age.She passed away and Alice was left without
her little side kick and mentor she had known all her life.

But recently I have become very aware and or able to 
admit to myself that somehow through my grieving my
beloved Honey,that Alice got a little lost in the shadows.
I hadn't been taking her for walks like I used to or out 
to the park.I stopped playing as much with her and sort
of began to take her companionship for granted I guess.
But I didn't mean to.

Today I felt a profound realization and took time out
to really reconnect again with my beloved Alice.
I am grateful for her unconditional love.



When two dogs become one,
there is still so much love nurture.
Just as she continues to nurture me.
~ ♥ ~

Tabitha 



Bring on the new week..Vrooom




I like Mondays.( Usually ) They're good days to kick
off a new week with new perspectives and hopefully
refreshed focus to meet a list of things to do.We are 
each capable of dreading the norm of a mundane or
stressful routines we put ourselves through during the
week.I'm of the mine at this point in my life to keep a
customized perspective that each day I decide how I
will deal with life.It starts with the willingness to just 
do my best,enjoy the process - and stay fearless.

It makes for a much more fulfilling life,even
if we can't shake fears we can just bring them
with us while we decide to move ahead anyways.

Here's wishing you all the kind of week you each 
hope for in your own worlds and life routines too.

~ Life's too short to settle for less than we desire ~



Monday, May 23, 2016

Morning muse by the gentle music in the rain.

Early morning meditation beneath
the sounds of the tippy toeing rain.
Like a distant tap dancing song,it's
carrying a mildly amusing upbeat to
it.

Fresh air through the open window.
Peaceful holiday Monday as no cars
out on the roads this early.Just birds
flying freely,searching for breakfast.

I perched with my beloved hot coffee -
and let my big dog share a blanket on
the couch beside me.She's a big baby.

We just sat.Staring out the window.
Ringing in a new day with gratitude.

Here's to the simple moments to use
for our own mental and spiritual health.

Like a well balanced meal to nurture a
body - so to is a well balanced day for
overall wellness.Takes a bit of practice
when we fall off course.Worth every bit
of effort to keep trying what works for a
sense of well being within.Self discipline
does not have to carry high exceptions.

Sometimes it just takes tuning out those
usual distractions in our day to day habits.
Just sit peacefully, listening to the rain and
our deeper,healthier intuitions guiding us.
~

Tabitha

Sunday, May 22, 2016

~ Literacy ~


In this day and age of constant screen time distractions book still make me happy.

I'm sipping coffee among boxes -
and piles of books this morning.
Antique books to contemporary.



I am in my glory and got to really
thinking about literacy.How often 
we can take reading and writing
for granted.Some people may not
be well read,know how to spell that
great or not have the best grammar.



I hope they ignore critical people who 
seem to like pointing out spelling and
or grammar errors online and just let
themselves self express as they learn
to read and write more clearly by trying.



Never in a millions years have I ever 
felt such a connection to written words 
and humanity as I do at this later point 
in my life.I am grateful I can read and I
want to support any adult who may not
be able to read and write very well to 
not give up if they want to learn more.
None of us are perfect.



There are so many new places to go in
life when we can self express and read
the words from others as well.It's a gift.
Read and write as you wish.The mind 
is meant to learn,keep it open just like
a book..and keep turning the pages ..
smile emoticon

Here's to the joy of reading and writing.
( and the freedom to as well ).

Be it in front of a computer screen
or old fashioned paper.Never give
up your rights and pleasures to
keep literacy alive and well
in your life and mind.
~
Tabitha

Wednesday, May 18, 2016

Note to self : Break stubborn old cycles of procrastinating..

So often,I have found my good life intentions
are caught in a vicious cycle of inspirational
ideas - and ever so habitual procrastinating.

The perfectionist in me sitting at an imaginary
round table with the self critic and somewhat
shy introvert,continuing to take over my courage
to get past a few of these hang ups.It can slowly
eat at my self esteem if I don't stay aware of the
energy I give into the old,rather than just doing
my best for today to do what I can.It's truly an
eye opener when I move around my fears and
see what's around the corner of my goals, with
willingness.( I say " around " because there's a
few fears that will likely linger within but I'm not
going to just stand there staring that them,right ?)

It's been taking some practice and starting to pay
in ways I used to shy from imagining for myself in
realistic ways.Life isn't that hard,it's our thinking
and ways we deal with ourselves that I find is the
most interesting and often,challenging.Slowing it
down to each moment adds up to a more steady
and patient life journey.I am grateful for this place
in my life today.I'm more productive and focused.

The more energy I give to the positive parts of my
vitality - the easier it is to chip away and eventually
- break stubborn old cycles of procrastinating.

No important goal is too big or too small not
to work to meet it,with patience and courage.

What are waiting for,really ?

~
Tabitha 

Everything Comes Together by The Paul & John

Here's a song I have on my mobile playlist I love
to listen to when the sun is shining through the open
window of my home office or when I'm out walking 
beneath a cloud crowded sky, for some inspiration.
It is a feel good kind of song that

Turn your speakers on and enjoy !




































Monday, May 16, 2016

Melody Beattie is back online with a new website!

Melody is back online with her new website
after a bit of hiatus getting her site revamped.
http://melodybeattie.com/
Please see her listings for any relevant work 
and information you may find interesting and
insightful for your personal place in life today.
The Grief Club Website is no longer but if you
are looking for grief reference reading,Melody
has a lot of information with her new website -
and looks like she's going to be sharing more
over time.She is my grief writing mentor and I
had the immense pleasure of being hired by
her with writing a piece on Multiple losses for
her previous Grief Club Website 5 years ago.
We keep in touch via email,she is amazing !
Read up what's she's been up to and more.
Happy to see she's back online in new form!
~
Cheers,
Tabitha

Fresh new week,fresh new perspectives.


Fresh Rose in our home garden after a garden hose shower.
It's petal so velvety and delicate yet sturdy and resilient against 
the unpredictable elements of nature.This to me is symbolic of
our spirits and cognitive wellness.When we take time to stop 
and refresh our perspectives.Breaking older habits of critical or
worrisome thinking.We're meant to grow and bloom like all of 
nature's life.So here's to fresh new week in life with the gifts of
willingness to take chances on fresh new perspectives with who
we are,what we want from today. Life is about growing,embrace.
Wishing you a productive and healthy new week !
~
Tabitha 

Tuesday, April 26, 2016

When is a little,enough ?

Sunrise photo taken by Tabitha Montgomery © 2016


How many times do we hear ourselves complain we wish we had 
this,that or the other ? How often do we grimace about our looks,
our thinking,our procrastinating ?How many times do we catch our
own attitudes and behaviors,mimicking the ones we complain about
in our society ? How often do we ignore the fear of becoming what
we fear ? Will we ever be enough ? Will this life ever give us enough?

How we view the scales of needs is purely from our own perspectives
of priorities.The basic fundamental depths of our humanity and spirituality.
Who are we ? What is really the most important parts of our being today ?

I honestly believe,if more people realized just how much they do have in 
their lives,they'd settle for a different kind of more humbled happiness and
acceptance.Add a little bit of gratitude in there and we'd all be better off to
work harder at our bigger goals in life rather than dragging our heels with a
sense of never being good enough.Happy enough.At some point we could 
just stop and reconsider how we view ourselves with a little more self care.

When the sun rises,it is enough to make me stop and appreciate it shedding
light on new perspectives to be open to new possibilities.When is a little of 
anything in our lives,ever going to be enough ? When we decide it is good 
enough for today,without settling for less.

Because we may very well be settling for less
- if we're never happy always wanting more.

~
Tabitha